Thursday, February 10, 2005
hey peeps... its new year once again... happy lunar new year ppl..
been dreading the arrival of dis yr...juz dun hab a good feeling abt dis year...and my intuition are usually very accurate...and i juz wish tt it's wrong this time round... have been so sad dat i cried duno how many times le~ time realli passes very fast and dis yr, i'll be 18 le~ so fast....
actually, i'm very scared tt the ppl ard me will go away...as in the sense that i wont be able to see them again... i juz have this feeling..i'm so scared... argh.
it'll also be a very crucial year for me as i take my 'a' ;evel dis yr...muz mug mug mug.....! even have hw over dis cny.. sigh. still realli cnt believe that time has passed so quickly.... i'm growing..maturing..and the older generation is growing even older...time realli waits for no man.... i dun want!!!! i want to be happy, to still be at the age where my parents still dotes on us...the innocent age..where we are still curious abt the world and ignorant abt many many stuffs... where godma and mama n papa are still young...and us, children even younger...
just saw my godma a few days back...she seems to have aged so much dat my heart ache..it has only been one yr..and she look as if she has aged 5..and she looked realli tired... it pains me to see her like dat..i want so much to embrace her and tell her that i miss her love her..but sth stop me..i duno wad..but i wished i had done dat after she left... i shld have..i'm so sad....juz very very sad.... oh no..i'm crying again... sigh.
i used to love cny...look forward to it..esp when i was young..cen get red packets and all..but now..i realli dread it...hate it. new year used to mean a new year to me..w new hopes, dreams and wadeva it has in store for me..but now, it signifies the end of last year..there's no gg back... sigh.
hope everything will turn out fine........
++jingz++;
2/10/2005 08:03:00 PM
