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Friday, July 29, 2005

it has been some time since i last blogged...and i dun think i will be blogging as often too le~ prelims are coming..not that my blogging is very regular now..thr's realli not enuff time.. mr tan told us once that ever since the jc system has come out, ppl have been saying that two years is too short..shold make it three yrs..i cnt help but agree w him as well..but if they make it three yrs, i must as well study in a institute..bcos institute takes 3 yrs to complete the a level syllabus...sighs. going to a jc was not my first option, but it was my final option..i realli want to do it well and rmb the happy times i have in sajc, not the bad ones..i want to look back to my jc life and say "hey, i love my sch..i have made frens who stand together thru thick and thin..and last but not least, i have managed to produce good results" .. i want to be able to say, yes! the times spent and memories made will be wanted to kept in my heart forever and not forgotten..

over this week, much have happened nonetheless..there's always up and downs..no life also got life..no life cos have to keep mugging..got life bcos we can always find interesting things happening ard us..just that wheter u realised it anot..cos thr's definitely sth happening at all times..revolving ard you..once, a friend said to me.."wah~ur life so interesting"..i was rather surprised cos i din realli think abt it..coming to think abt it, yes, there are always up and downs happening in my life..very quickly..why??i dun even noe myself..but i think, everybody leads an interesting life..its just the way we perceive it... but we onli hold some precious ones close to our hearts..and rmb the humiliating and fearful ones.. i realli wanna thk all the ppl who have made a difference to my life..it is you who have made me grow up and some, seen me thru growing up..

whether i have changed for the better or the worse, i dun realli noe..but i hope i did change for the better..i dun want anyone to feel disappointed in me..bcos of the ppl ard me, i have strived on..i will work hard, for myself too..

over the week, i have met a bunch of uncouth young boys, sadly, it was from my sec sch..a school that i love so much. . went for sushi buffet w mr liew, yang, pearly and hana.. and had faced enormous emotional changes... i duno wad's wrong w me..perhaps i have kept too much inside me for such a too long.. but then, i had fun in the week too.. (^_^) i onli want to rmb that..

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7/29/2005 09:01:00 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

eh..i noe his name liao..its hagen..hahaz. still think he got a super infectious smile le~ (^_^) gd luck for the revival!! heex. . jiaxin, i guess tt ans ur qns...

hmmz..duno is i give wrong no. or i'm totally forgotten le~sighs...

aniwae, gotta gambatte for my upcoming prelims liao ar!!!!! i dun wana fail again...and this time round, i did much worse than all the rest..sighs. dun even noe i can graduate anot...dun dare hope for too much too..sighs.

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7/20/2005 07:46:00 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

arh!!!!!! omg-ed!!! i cant believe wad i juz did la..... omg!!!! lolz......
this ish so farny..juz a few wks ago i was telling my bro abt this guy having a super charming smile la..on tv for the superstar thing...and i saw HIM at hmv!!!! omg-ed!

the thing is he even wrote a song for will pan, and i was listening to his album... i din noe umtil his fren told me dat it was him who wrote the song la...hmmz..impressed..den ask me if i recognise him anot..and yup, it was him..but guiltily, i dun recall his name..onli tt he was M6 in the competition..his handshake was erm...i duno how to describe la..but not those kind of eh..yar la..left me a good impression lor...

But then, i seriously did sth i shld not hab!! arh! the words were out of my mouth b4 i cld stop myself, onli when i said it did i realised tt i had said it and ya..oops! but too late liao....!!!!! arh!

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7/12/2005 08:22:00 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

ooh...before i forget, today's wynne's bdae..

Happy 18th Bdae!!

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7/10/2005 12:07:00 PM

i guess i'm realli emotionally unstable...perhaps i use my emotions too much...juz like wad my dad says..i'll onli get myself hurt..if i continue to "gan qing yong shi" but wad can i do?? i try not to..but tt'll be so unlike me..i'll feel so fake..how can we ever do things w/o putiing our feelings in it? it's not tt he say we shld not but not too much..but i do..whenever i do sth, i give my hundred and one percent then onli to get myself hurt? i duno la.... sighs.

wadeva i do is always wrong...i feel so stupid..so dumb..like this cannot..like that oso cannot..wad's wrong w using the com to listen to songs, to watch flash movies, to chat, to play games, to blog?? we, the children of spore oready dun hab much life besides doing these and to study...the com onli can beused for studies purposes?? i duno la..juz feel so restrained...

says abt being fair and not being bias..but you're obviously showing so..i dun feel any more love coming from you..i speak less to you bcos i dun wan to land in aother quarrel..i dun ans you and ignore you when you are obviously scolding me and nagging at me to prevent another conflict but you say i show more disrespect as i grow up.. i feel tt i'm everything you dont want..a dumb daughter tt cnt bring you glory i feel so inferior to both my siblings..you obviously treat them better..or perhaps its me tt thinks too much?? i hope so.. juz bcos you are iliterate, you keep using tt as an excuse to not understand us..me, in particular..
i've given up..wad do you want me to do?? i retort back when i do not agree w your view bcos i have my stand too..i feel differenty, and you say i'm always arguing w you..more frequently now..esp this yr..you say tt i've changed for the worse..and so now, i keep quiet whenever you hurl words at me..amd you say i'm showing you disrespect..wad am i suppose to do?? i juz feel so lost..perhaps i was juz a mistake you and dad had..i shld not be here..i onli bring more pain and worries to the ppl ard me..and as for you, mayb a waste of money too? wasted money to bring me up for 18 yrs....wasted your time and efforts to make me your ideal daughter...sighs.

pls ignore all my ramblings ppl, i guess i'm just too... i duno la...sorie. pls forgive me....

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7/10/2005 11:36:00 AM

Monday, July 04, 2005

heheh... been slacking alot these weekend..in fact..i've been slacking all the way..nb even look at phy even though having phy spa tml...oops. but den, no mood le~

i've even finish 3 books i've borrowed over the weekend..one per day..love the books..super good ar! was so gd i cldnt help but teared at parts...wld especially recommend "journey of hopes" by lurlene mcdaniel ...she's super good! think wynne wld love the book...

yup yup, b4 i forget, today's jasmine's 18th bdae!!

happy bdae jas!!

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7/04/2005 03:31:00 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

am here to blog while my bro is having his lunch...standing in..hahaz..

wellz, like i've said..i had njyed myself over the two days and i went to the lib earlier to get myself some books to read...yea man! finally! it has been such a long time since i've last touched fiction books.. (^_^)

hmmz, let me roughly tell ya guys wad happen over these few days other than mugging hard for the papers..i'm gonna fail them all...even math, the subject i'm most confident in...sighs. but i'm not gonna be bothered abt the results until i get back the results..

my "last" paper was on thur (econs), den went out w seo, jas, wynne and dorcas...went to cine and hmv first den at hmv, wynne jas and me got our bdae prezzies..btw, wynne, i did not get myself pan weibo's cd..i oready have all of his cds at home..heex. (",)

den after that, we went ps to mit dorcas to hab lunch and to catch a movie..while we were waiting for dorcas at yoshi, seo and jas went to pizza hut to find seo's friend..me and wynne were left there by ourselvees for quite a long time..and we tok..reallli tok..and ya..i'm glad i had the talk w her..njyed it too...and ya, it was gd to get what i'm thinking abt off my chest (bcos its abt her) to her..ya..juz bcos of one thing she said tt gave me the courage to speak my mind..and it kinda remindeed me of how frank i can be w pei pei... (^_^) but pei, dun worry, none can take over ur position as my super best friend k... (^_^)
and the reason why seo and jas took so long was bcos they went to do 3 things instead of just one...

find seo's friend
"pick up" dorcas to meet us
check the movie timing

den finally, we had our lunch..hahaz. den we took neoprints before heading off for movies..wynne left first bcos she had geog paper on fri..ya..ther eason we walked all the way from cine to ps was cos we wanted to watch ice princess but duno why dun hab..sighs. in the end it was b/w mr and mrs smith and alot like lovr..seo gave in to me and i was feeling awful abt her da fang-ness cos i noe she wanted to watched hers much more than i want to watch mine...realli sorie, dear gurl..anwz, after the movie, we went off to cold storage to see jas' initial bdae prezzie (tigger soft toy), but apparently, it's not there anymore..then, seo and me were like B1 and B2 in 'bananas in pyjamas' heex...click click..heex. (",)

den on friday, had our chinese listening paper for BT2.. oni me, wynne and jas re-taking..and i was realli desperate to see a familiar face in the morn cos i saw none until even when the bell rang..den i saw jas' friend, shuan..cos he oso retaking..wah..imagine how relief i felt..den finally i saw jas! and i was so so happy le..hahaz..wellz, but den, there was stillno sign of wynne..was worried tt she forget..but i saw stella instead..she tot geog was the first paper in the morning...lol. cldnt halp but luff...heex. gd thing wynne din forget got chinese paper ar..phew.

den went home to change and den out to kbox w yang!! yea! so long nb k liao..hahaz. njyed myself tremendously...sis came over to join us halfway thru, after she completed her math paper dat day..and we were given extra an hour bcos the stupid tv broke down twice..hahaz..but den..its worth the 7.60 we paid in total! yeah man! heex. wah..first time nb pay over ten bucks..not per person some more but for 3 ppl..heex..cos yang hong got free lunch coupon for 2!! (^_^)

den after k-ing, we went bugis shop shop...wah..den saw this super nice necklace la!! arh!! cos 32 bucks le..but it is so beautiful! it caught my eye at first glance le la! den some more is great spore sale..but cnt buy anything else le..cos gg broke soon..den some more see so many nice nice stuffs... (T.T) sobx sobx. wellz, i'm so not gonna miss the one nxt yr! heex (^_^)

eh..my bro actually finished his lunch quite some time le..gotta let him use liao.. (",)

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7/02/2005 02:07:00 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005

wadeva...posted a super long entry only to have it all gone... atghs. the world of technology..the thing that makes us better off and worse off at the same time...argh. super tired oready..shall blog another day.. but one thing to say.. BT2 finally's over!! and i had fun these two days..heex. eh..not realli over la..still go phy spa on tue..oops. nitez ppl... *yawnz*

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7/01/2005 11:16:00 PM