Tuesday, March 24, 2009
i fell again.
this time round,
i bled pretty badly.
it has been such a long time since i got external injuries from fall.
it hurts. the pain excruciating.
i didnt even realised i was bleeding until i saw the blood stains on my white pants.
i mean long white pants and i'm still able to scratched my knee so badly. the entire skin came off.
the wound was so ugly. so gross. it was... ...
i was so scared. so frightened.
i wanted so badly to have you with me.
i wanted to hear your reassuring voice
telling me everything will be alright.
i teared.
i hate that kind of feeling
but i tell myself no.
told myself i am a strong girl.
i am a brave girl
and it's only a small issue
told myself i can handle myself.
i picked myself up.
my actions the total opposite of what i was feeling.
i was unnaturally calm.
but the inside o me was frantic
i was so grossed out by the look of the wound.
i didnt really know what to do.
but in the end, i believed i handled myself just fine.
in fact, i think i'm proud of myself now.
i took care of myself.
i washed my wound and tried to approached the sch office for 1st aid kit.
but darn the school. they didnt have one. i almost fainted.
good thing i managed to get some antiseptic and guazed it up.
i'm glad i got it through.
without you.
++jingz++;
3/24/2009 04:52:00 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
i think you're expecting me to post
not to disappoint you
so here's it
i dont have much to say but perhaps,
one question to ask
"how wld you fel if i ask you to join me and my frens
but ignore you for the great big deal of time?"
我不是 wait for things to happen
but just watching, observing
b4 i decide on my action
as you know, i'm slower
like you always like to say
ppl 慢三拍
i 慢五拍
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it was those pairs o eyes i fell in love w
你给的那眼神
和从前一样
在那瞬间
我吓一跳
呆住了
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如果我那个梦是真的
也没什么不好
一个未爱过的人
会比较容易爱上另一个人
也能够拥有一段
没有包袱的
像梦幻似地
简单,单纯 的甜蜜爱情
你说对吗?
那个梦幻
现在
早已不见了
++jingz++;
3/20/2009 01:31:00 AM
Saturday, March 07, 2009
i had a bad dream a few nights back
woke up crying
was crying in my dream
我不怎么记得那场梦
我只知道
在梦里
有个人浮现在我面前
我却怎么都想不起他是谁
我一直在挣扎
挣扎着
一直想那个人是谁
仿佛是失忆了
怎么都想不起
头好疼
好辛苦
好难受
我哭了
醒来时
已泪流满面
到那时候
我还在哭
还在想
那时候
我才发现
那个人是你
那时候我才记起你的名字
×都这么久了×
×我为何又突然在次梦见你?×
++jingz++;
3/07/2009 11:53:00 PM