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Sunday, October 26, 2008

my dear friend arh...

i'm really really happy for you
*smile*

and dont talk rot abt history repeating itself
(although the happenings seem similar
copy me! hahas.
copy front part ok
but
dont copy the ending hor~)

just live now for now okie?
^^
be happy

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time made right
^^

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distractions
argh

i'm so dead-ed
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yupei says
"we're pigs"

gotta admit it
sighs.

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eek.
i cant help it.

i still watched tt darn show
and now i feel rotten

argh.

oh wells

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high school musical 3,
anyone up for it?

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nice song
*i've got the song up*
^^

歌名：记得

歌手：张惠妹

曲：林俊杰词：易家扬

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久

心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的

让时间说真话虽然我也害怕

在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了却没办法往回走

两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救

亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂

两个相爱的人等对方先说想分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候

我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空

走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口

是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

++jingz++;
10/26/2008 09:09:00 PM

i'm glad a lil' sth i did

can have such a positive impact
*smile*

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wuan drew this for me:

tt's my fluff pet!

*so sweet o her*

thkyew wuan!

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today's wuan's the one who wants to take pics

not me!

cam-whore again!

lols

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saw shuet and chu zheng.

cldnt believe tt was the chu zheng we used to know

neither did cld wuan.

didnt even recognise him until shuet says it's him.

wah~

so tall now lor

*abit like huemin's bro liddat*

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江山易改

本性难移

some things just nv change

and yet changes are all part and parcel o our lives

we grow thru all the exposures

and experience the experiences

and learn...

i've learnt quite alot thru this journey

opened my eyes and seen

yet i know this is not all

and thr's more to come

more for me to learn and progress

i'm thkful

for all that i had

and all that i have

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friends
the most impt things to have in life
other than kinship

but what is the exact defintion?

does those you rarely contact considered friends?
are they even friends in the first place?
hi-bye friends?
or mere acquaintances?

some only do certain things w you
some only talk to you when they see you
some are only in contact cos you see each other regularly
once you've broken off frm the place,
thr's no longer any ties

are these ppl considered friends?
or just merely ppl you know?
others dont even really care

and only talk to you if they need you

they say
friends in need are friends indeed

only when trouble comes you'll see who your real friends are
ppl who stick by you

but if they have no idea what you are gg thru and tend to neglect the frienship
or they are not sensitive enough

and they nv go thru the difficult times w you

are they guilty?
are they considered friends?

but if you only go to them when you have troubles
they may find tt you only go to them in times o need.

contradictory huh?

i think ppl whom you consider friends are actually those you go to in times o need though
its not tt you find them only when you need them
but bcos you feel they'll be thr for you

and at the same time
you know tt you'll be thr for them w they need you

they cry when you cry
and laugh when you laugh
they share your sorrows and pain
as well as your joys

they'd want the best for you
not compete w you till the very end
(though some may say it's healthy to have competition)
it may be true but i beg to differ
i call tt selfish friends if they only care abt winning
or are they friends at all?
more like competitiors?

they shld be motivating you to do well along w them
and not putting you down

it takes alot to keep a friendship gg
just like r/s
it takes 2 to tango
both have to put in effort

it gets tiring after awhile
if only one party puts in the effort to keep it gg

especially w the packed up time
the bz schedule
it's all the more difficult to keep up w friends

to sustain the friendship

and smt
it's not tt we'd like to neglect these ppl ard us.

perhaps everyone is too bz w their own lives?

i've fallen and i've risen

i know who my friends are

i'm content enough

to know tt i have friends tt are true and real
i dont have to have alot
and i'll be glad enough to have just one

but i know i have more than tt
^^

i may know alot o ppl
may even consider some as friends

but how close
how true
and how real

it all depends

and somehow

i thot o chooi ching again

i wonder how she's doing now

it has been a long time

a long long time

*sighs*

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i wld have thot
i've become a lady o steel

yet
i'm just more sentimental
and emotional

feel more easily
touched more easily
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the reason why i like children
and why i like working in childcare

they are as pure as can be

happy means happy
sad means sad

smt even when they dont understand what mood they are in exactly
and tt they just dont feel good

they just tell you they are not happy

happiness comes from the bottom o their heart
seeing them happy makes me happy too

in their simple world
simple life

no complications

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i wonder if i have the chance to make certain choices again

wld i make the same ones all over again?
for eg. the course i'm taking now

i may
i may not

ok.what nonsense is this?

i have no regrets.
just wondering.

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i think i've found my passion
what i really like to do

^^
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mayb i shld just major in entreprenuership
instead o finance or mkting

heh.

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a future dream w my pals
mayb i shld consider

(the above)

in relation to my passion
and in relation to my major
^^

i've alr got a draft plan in mind
but like yupei says

we still need to fine tune it
^^

i sure hope i'm not the only one enthu abt it
and it wont be a three minute thing
heh.

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if i were to say what is the thing i value the most in life

i'd still say r/s
not just bgr
but all forms o r/s
be it kinship
or friendship
just relations itself.

*am i just plain dumb or wad?*

wells, i cant help it.

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if i were to choose to be either blind or deaf

i'd rather die

i cant live w/o colours in my life
i cant stand being able to not look at ppl thru the eyes

*tt's why i dont really like non-face-to-face communication*

i believe
it's the eyes tt will tell eveything
and shows everything
tt will show sincerity
tt will touch deep into your soul

and music
i cant live w/o them

it makes life so much more beautiful
to be able to move w the flow
like water
like air

free

++jingz++;
10/26/2008 01:32:00 AM

Friday, October 24, 2008

a chance to japan for 2?

hmm

i hope i'm tt lucky

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jianwen just came back frm japan

*envy right. sch term still can go japan.*

and she got me this

yummy!

*thkyew jianwen!*

it taste good.
v good.

much much better than pocky.

thicker and tastier

*grins*

the packaging's v exquisite too.

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meimei says
"let's get a logitech headphone"

and i said
"logitech? tt's a good brand."

"omg-ed.
i cant believe tt came out frm my mouth."

she laughed and said
"welcome to the marketing world"

i am not a brand conscious person
didnt used to be.

look what has maketing done to me.
*faints*

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life is fragile

so pls treasure all those ard you

let them know they are loved
they are cherished
and how much they really mean to you

cos you'll nv know

you'll nv know

not just what's gg to happen in the future
(as in long term)

but tmr as well
or rather
even the nxt minute.

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i'm really careless

misplaced my purse again.

but i'm lucky

duno how many umpteen times alr~
heh.

*still dare to say right?*

but i'm getting smarter.

frm all the misfortunes w my purse.

heh.

frm the past lessons learnt.

and the fact tt i know i'm careless

i put a card in my purse

w my name, contact number and my address

my purse was fd
and the person called me

thk gdness.

and guess where i misplaced it this time rd

...

not tt i'm proud o it

*sighs*

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school

i think the canteen are infested w np students
rather than our own sch ppl.

*so difficult to find seats*

i cant understand why.
not tt the food is so fantastic

or is it cos the grass always greener on the other side?

and this is what we have now

ps. i duno the person in the pic
but he's taking so long at the machine tt i decide not to wait anymore

heh.
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it's always good to see jianwen and wuan in school

be it intentional or unintentional
^^

seeing them always bring my mood up a level

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nostalgia.

i miss yupei!!!!

especially our secondary school days

when we always stick tgt like tweedledee and tweedledum

and all the studying we do tgt

how we helped each other out

each in the areas where we're stronger and weaker in

i seriously miss those days

*sighs*

especially seeing ben and kelvin studying tgt

the kind o 默契

the lingo shared

smt only we understand each other

*super proud o our friendship*

*grins*

pei, cheng miss you!

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ah ben kor kor says

i sure can de

except tt
i'm just plain stubborn

lack determination
and encouragement

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and this is what is what i did
after losing concentration while doing the mkting essay

the top part was my half-completed essay

and the bottom

for self motivation

wahahaz.

++jingz++;
10/24/2008 10:47:00 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

stop! stop!

just stop doing this to me

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i cant believe i slpt for 12hrs straight last night

eek.

-concussed-

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i like to smile
^^
so what?
^^
*grins*

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i realise i dont like ppl to ask me when i'm free

just set a date w me
and i'd let you know if i can make it anot

and make sure you yourself is able to make it
(unless sth really crop up the last min)

to go out or meet up

obviously

it's for companionship
or to catch up
i dont mind plainly just hang out

you dont have to explain

the more you try to explain
the weirder it gets

or unless you really have a ulteriro motive

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thr's only a thin line b/w right and wrong

and smt

there isnt even a right or wrong
it's just a matter o perception

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i think i have gone to the extreme end

enough
but more to come?

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it's the lil things done
tt will touch a life
and make a difference

it does not have to be a big thing

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brought my bro to SAKAE for dinner ytd

early bday treat
^^

he hvt been to such a restaurant b4
and i cld see that he's really excited abt it

i'm glad he njyed the dinner

and it was the first time the 3 o us
*the siblings, of cos*
went for dinner like this

*mama and papa off for company dinner*

妹妹 says
she'd be early

instead she was the last to reach lo~
anws,
we just started off w/o her
heh.

*photos uploaded onto fb!*

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think i'm getting more random.
*oops*

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and smt
i think i'm moving too fast
i'm scaring myself

*obviously not studies wise
studies, i'm w-o-l-s*

eek.

++jingz++;
10/19/2008 10:54:00 PM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

really tired after a long day

...

but i still feel like blogging

a series o events

a series o thots

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17 october 2008
yang's 21st bday

she looks really sweet today.
really pretty
^^

i feel really happy for her.
envious but really happy.

she's a lucky girl
happy-go-lucky
pure and innocent
simple and happy
^^

i wish for her to stay tt way always.
simple and carefree
always joyous

she deserves to be happy

my wish for her bday is for her to nv be hurt
not to be hurt by anything

to stay contented

i guess i'm rather protective o this fren o mine

so no one is to bully her!
anyone who does,
you better watch out!

i dont think i'd be the only one coming after you.
i believe her other frens will too
for such a sweet girl like her

the party was really great
and i actually felt quite bad for being only to do up an alphabet for her deco w my tight schedule
and only managed to make her a bday card :( but i hope she'll like it

i kinda told my tuitee and he said
"it's the thot tt counts mah~"
lols

but i'm really proud o the card i made
i've always been proud o my art work
even when it isnt very well done

i njy doin them
i like making cards and gifts
bocs it's made frm the heart

i forgot to take photo o this artpiece though
sighs

*yang, pls do me a favour to take a pic o it and send it to me pls?*

once more

happy 21st birthday!

ps. thkyew kelvin, for the ride to the venue :)
thkyew pearly and parents, for the ride to a more convenient place for me to go home :)

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hana asked me abt my bf

i looked away and told her
we broke up
as a matter o factly

devoid o expression.

and yes, we did.

thkyew for not probing

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took some helium ballons home.
^^
yes, helium ballons! :)
those tt will float! :)

i took 3

but along the way
i came across this bbq pit

upon seeing the ballons,
2 lil girls ran towards me and paused

i look at them and stopped b4 them
*smiling*

asked them if they like to have the ballons and they nodded
i just grinned.

they are lil jap girls
w 2 pony tails each
sisters they must be
so cute
^^

afraid tt the ballons may fly off
i tied the ballons to their wrist

they thked me
" arigato gozaimas"

seeing the lil girls so happy
makes me feel happy too

after we walked off
the girl came running after me w another lil boy

seems like the boy wants a balloon too
lol

and i'm left w none after tt
but happy.

pearly gave one of hers to me
(lol)
and let the other flew to the sky.
a wish balloon

...

i wish...

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smt being ignorant isnt really a bad thing
knowing too much isnt good

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descriptive words doesnt make a person
being able to define personality isnt everything
it goes more than tt

to know a person
it means much more

smt you dont even realise until you say it out loud

and how true it may sounds

who appears to be
may not be

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*how long will it take?*

++jingz++;
10/18/2008 01:52:00 AM

Monday, October 13, 2008

a hundred thots
-
random-ness
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and

suddenly it struck me

thr's nthing wrong in being wrong
its abt making the wrong right.
its abt learning how to make it right.
and its abt learning frm the wrong or mistake made.

bocs

nobody is perfect
but almost everyone
or rather
everyone is seeking perfect-ness

i think

and time is irreversible
so forward we continue to progress
and try to make all right again

am i right?

*or left?*
heh.
trying to be funny here
so pls laugh
thank you*

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smt

it's not abt the right time
it's abt making the time right

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and my dear fren

cheng will support you no matter what decision you make.
the most impt thing is that you are happy.

i want to see you happy :)
i dont want to see you sad
i dont want to see you so stressed up

it saddens me to know tt i'm unable to help much

but come what may
i'll always be here

just lemme know if you need me to do anything

anything.

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i am very happy now

but why do i keep wondering?

++jingz++;
10/13/2008 10:12:00 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2008

stupid weather.
really dont like the weather today.
so humid!

argh.

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stayed at home the whole day today.
(other than walking over to my tuitee's to give tuition)

tried to do what i'm supposed to do
but i guess i didnt really accomplished much.
sighs.

stupid brain o mine.

and

i danced across the living room instead of walk.

my mom saw

and she was astonished
i guess

lols.

dont think she ever saw me dance b4.
lols.

well,
the song i played was nice and catchy mah~

rather surprising
cos i've nv danced at home
lols.

think i'm just gg crazy soon

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anws

decision made.

and guess what?

heh.

actually i dont care

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i realised tt i'm always playing w fire.
i lead a dangerous life.
lols

or perhaps i'm just dumb

and i ended up getting my fingers burnt

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to my dear dear fren:

i'm glad you have finally made up your mind.
but once made up alr,
pls dont look back.
you'll feel worse.

i know you're sad.
i know you feel bad.
i know it's difficult not to think.
i know perfectly well
i understand

cry if you feel the need to.
there's nthing wrong to tt.
it's really alright.
humans are emotional beings.

but after crying,
you'll will have get back onto your feet.
it'll definitely take time
i'm not sure how long
but i'm sure you'll get on well.
things will get better as time pass

and

cheng will be here for you no matter what.

*hugs*

let time tell eveything
and
believe in the future alright?

seeing you so sad makes me sad too
makes my heart ache

and let's work towards our goals in life tgt k?
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actually i'm thinking o moving my blog.

either
change the url to another web address
or
create a new one

this blog is too cute.
perhaps abit too much too.

as yrs go by,
i think i shld discard the cute image alr.
but duno how i'm gg to do tt.
lols.

will create sth tt means more
as well as a new beginning.

dont wry frens,
if you find tt this blog no longer exist
you'll know tt i've moved.

just ask me for the url if you guys still want to continue to read
if not
it'll just stay w a few of my close frens.

++jingz++;
10/12/2008 10:34:00 PM

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

totally. drained.

i'm not sure how the guys do it
我真的佩服得五体投地

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2 guys are driving me crazy.

i'm really gg mad.

they are my tuitees la~
what you thinking!
lols.

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i found my music world back
indulgence

×*grins*×

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有时
我好想

。。。

静静的
静静的

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后来-刘若英

后来我总算学会了如何去爱

可惜你早已远去消失在人海

后来终于在眼泪中明白

有些人一旦错过就不再

桅子花白花瓣

落在我蓝色百褶裙上

「爱你」你轻声说

我低下头闻见一阵芬芳

那个永恒的夜晚

十七岁仲夏你吻我的那个夜晚

让我往后的时光每当有感叹

总想起当天的星光

那时候的爱情

为什么就能那样简单

而又是为什么人年少时

一定要让深爱的人受伤

在这相似的深夜里你是否一样

也在静静追悔感伤

如果当时我们能不那么倔强

现在也不那么遗憾

你都如何回忆我带着笑或是很沉默

这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞

后来我总算学会了如何去爱

可惜你早已远去消失在人海

后来终于在眼泪中明白

有些人一旦错过就不再

你都如何回忆我

带着笑或是很沉默

这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞

后来我总算学会了

如何去爱可惜你早已远去消失在人海

后来终于在眼泪中明白

有些人一旦错过就不再

永远不会再重来

有一个男孩爱着那个女孩

++jingz++;
10/07/2008 11:23:00 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

i'm down to

either

majoring in finance and minoring in mkting

or

majoring in mkting and minoring in finance.

*although i dont have to wry abt the minor part right now.*

mkting is fun and dynamic and interesting
but scary.

finance is sth i know i shld be able to do well in.
it states have to have strong foundation in
math, stats amd econs.
which i think i'm quite alrighty w.
but it's boring.

argh.

time's running up.

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i looked thru my msn contacts

and realised tt i dont even know some o the ppl in the list.
some i rmb but dont even talk on msn at all.
and some i rmb but dont contact at all,
ie. those barely contact.

i start to wonder if i shld just delete them all.
and just keep those tt i rmb and talk to in.

some ppl are meant to keep in your life.
some are meant to come and go.
some just pass by.

i think maybe i shld just delete them huh.

++jingz++;
10/01/2008 11:37:00 PM