Monday, December 22, 2008

机会一旦错过
就永远不会再回来了

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think i muz be mad alr
being the lz me
how come i feel so happy
w my mom doesnt want to cook for me
and ask me to cook myself

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sch's starting soon
kinda looking forward
but kinda dreading it as well

sighs

still caught in b/w the 2 stupid courses
which i know i will defo take
it's just the major and minor
dumb

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anws, thx sugi
for the keropok

although i wanted the unfried ones.
thx for frying for me.
wuan was saying
its sweet o you
hahas, so i shld appreciate it

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practices was a flop

and end o classes
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i like my new tuitee
think she's the most polite
and sweetest tuitee i've come across
^^
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i just realised kallang is just a street away from geylang
no wonder

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i've gone thru the diffferent phases

the copycat phase
=
pink *copy mom*
+
blue *copy frens*


the undecided phase
*gg individual*
=
the colourfuls


the trying to act mature phase
*gg unique*
=
mixing colours


the individual phase
=
standardised mixed


the sweet phase
=
the sweet soft pink


the bubbly and sporty phase
=
the bright colours


now i think i'm gg for classic
hahas.
and maybe still retain abit o the fun bit
^^
*guess the colour!*

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i dont want to hear your apologies
nor the reasons

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i just want to settle it fast
to close it quickly
*giving myself a time limit*
cos i dont want anymore

*and just praying hard i'll be determined enough*

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why is it still like this?
我到底在想什么?
我到底要什么?
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你那眼神 那目光 都没变


你的一举一动 你的小动作


我都看得清清楚楚

那种我一切都明白的感觉
那种了解


我也还依然
。。


那种无法形容的感觉
那种漂浮不定的心情


但我只能静静的站在一旁
*把心情收拾好*

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你蓝牙我的那首歌
歌词打入心底
我只敢独自一个人
静静的躲在一旁听

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歌名:半情歌

歌手:元若蓝


花 接受凋零

风 接受追寻

心的伤还有一些 不要紧

我接受你的决定



你将会被谁抱紧

唱什麼歌哄他开心

我想著天空什麼时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停



你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格



你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱著 一半的歌



你将会被谁抱紧 唱什麼歌哄他开心

我想著天空什麼时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停



你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格



你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱著 一半的歌




我的明天 快不快乐 都是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格



你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

另一半的歌




++jingz++;
12/22/2008 10:42:00 AM


Sunday, December 14, 2008

a long week.
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last day o work @ expo
i went shopping
lols.
my end o work seems to declare
eat snake time for the rest o the promoters
(ard my area.lol.)
we were all bz w... ..hahas.


i didnt buy any o the bags
nor the top tt 我看上
bought sth else instead
heh.


i was dreading work tt day
cos o the late nite out
was super tired
thk gdness i didnt have the same partner

i like her better :)
at least we can talk
and she gave me quite an insightful rows o thots
hmmz

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tuesday was another good day w pei
^^
time seems to fly huh :)

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thur met up w wynne :)
after the donkey mths
so difficult to get tgt w our packed up time

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a sales person wanted to get her manager to hire me
she calls me the "ban-nai 讲话"
which means good at talking

another wanted to recommend me
to join the mgmt team
but too bad they seem to hire males only
lols
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i bumped into a guy in the ladies
i dont understand why he took a double
and still wanted to continue walking in

only when i told him straight tt it's the ladies
he went straight out and to the gents
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i realised i njy being able to make simple dishes
by myself
for myself
i like tt kind o feeling ^^
no need to depend on someone else in order to eat

the cooking part is not tt difficult after all
it's the preparation part tt is..

all i need is more confidence

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i need more practices!
but who?

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i still cant seem to figure out
my left and right
sighs

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seems to have lost touch
*get back the feel!*
somehow it feels different now
*changes*
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somehow the 潘玮柏 trick
doesnt seem to work anymore

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got to know this really cute girl
she speaks so demurely tt i feel v 粗鲁

she kinda remind me o this other girl
i think she'll quite suit..
i also not sure but nvm
hmmz.
oh wells...


this time round
when she asked me if i have a boyfriend
i went quiet for awhile b4 answering nope.
and she got so excited the way she says "我也是!"

lol

then she asked me if i had one b4
when she knew i had one
she continued to bomb me w qns

like how he told me
how i knew
how i replied


the way she asked made me wanted to laugh

memories were brought back
but in a good way
甜中带苦
苦中带甜
×bittersweet×

我记得故事中的精点
苦与乐
还有
许多许多 的 点点滴滴

the pt o time w i knew he likes me
the pt o time w i agreed
the pt o time w i realised he was afraid o losing me
the pt o time w ...

and all our firsts..

真的好多好多回忆
一直都不想再想的
通通都回来了

但一切都已成了过去

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歌名: 解脫

歌手: 張惠妹

Album: The Power Of Love (10年情歌最精選)

作 词:姚若龙 作 曲:许华强



爱是不夜城 回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾 我越感觉有点冷


变了心的人 越想越伤人

枯坐到清晨 阳光替房间开了灯




想 若结局一样又何苦再想

伤 若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤



解脱 是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走


我有自由好好过



解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦




想 若结局一样又何苦再想 (若结局一样又何苦再想)

伤 若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤



解脱 是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走


我有自由好好过



心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头

不要爱我的人再担心我



解脱 是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手 (不放手)

你有自由走


我有自由好好过


解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦


++jingz++;
12/14/2008 01:19:00 AM


Sunday, December 07, 2008

how do you feel if no one else wants to talk to you anymore?
proud of it?
i dont even know you realise it anot

insensible and insensitive

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i heard it
wldnt have imagined
it'd turned out this way
he's so gonna regret it

she's such a sweet girl

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stop trying to pick a fight w me
and biting my ear off

and pls stop being so cynical

i am not dumb either
wont fall for your trick
i'm weary o what you're doing
intentional anot

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miss tan is getting married!!
^^
so happy for her :)
her first and her last
her one and only

*sweet*

if i had a choice,
i'd like tt too
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pei is mad @ cheng
say cheng v 傻
am i?

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let's see..

friday:
met up w pei again :)
*we were like meeting up almost everyday
and were saying like if we'd get sick o each other? lols*


went for training
late.heh.
spin till dizzy
*keep the frame!*
*spot!*

saturday was another long day w work
getting smarter. hahas.
njyed talking to peijie and eda
and realised most o us dont like
...

hmmz.

met up w P and XQ.
phone collected! :)
they even changed the keypad for me!
yay!
*cos they were saying need to pay for the change,
but in the ened, the changed for me w/o charge.hahas.
cld be prob bcos the keypad got problem?*

P and XQ are actually quite cute tgt
lols.

and bumped into L along the way.
P laughed like mad thinking o what i've said
but i think put L and AL tgt ok mah~
but i'm not gg to do or say anything
lols.
think only P will know
lol


today!sunday!
hahas.
tuition was postponed.sighs.

kinda looking forward to the event tonight
think it'd be fun!
but i duno leh~
hmmz

but i'm so gonna die tmr
it'll end late
and i'm on morn shift
oppsy.


++jingz++;
12/07/2008 02:59:00 PM


Friday, December 05, 2008

i've sent my phone for servicing

so, ppl..

pls buzz me your contact no
or sign off your name when you sms me

thkyew :)

*so pls pardon me if i dont know who you are*

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it's not good enough
sighs.

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i dont think i want to talk to you.
it's so freaking obvious isnt it?

stop irritating me.
i dont think i need
nor want
any of your concern.

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another pervertic guy.
yuck.eeky.
same name some more.


*does all guys w similar name has the same character?*
disgusting.

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i think i'm getting old.
oh nos.

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think i have a new weird hobby
oops
lols

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i'm glad for all the "chop chop" meet ups.
^^

with xiaoyun, cara and elisa
^^
and L too

and also
the last min sci centre "chop chop" outing
w jianwen and huemin :)

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i'm glad for the planned way b4 meet-up too :)

w yupei! :)
who else?
lols

her exam has finally ended! :)
yay!

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let's see..

went to svc our phone tgt @ wisma
and saw

...


aaron kwok



we didnt even realised it was him.lol
talking abt super lag or bad @ recognition

we didnt even really notice
and was wondering why so many ppl was surrounding the place
see alr also not sure who.
lol


think he endorsed a watch
heh


lunched at far east
and met up w laura
to shop for the costume for the function

and it took us 2hrs plus just for tt 2 pieces!
i didnt think it wld take so long


it's rather ex though
sighs


now i think i'm having cognitive dissonance
*process o consumer behaviour*
oops


*but thk gdness for the final piece chosen
if i had chosen the other
i think the dissonance level wld be higher
although the material is more comfy*


thkyew peipei!
^^
think cheng can be really dumb dumb @ times huh


as we walked
i think we talked
more than we looked or shopped

lol


so in the end
we settled @ swensens @ PS

to "dinner" and dessert :)

*the v good choc ice-cream*

the food was good
so was the svc
and the catching up :)
* i mean for pei and me la~lol*


think we v couple-ly
other ppl may be jealous
lol


really really happy
^^


++jingz++;
12/05/2008 12:04:00 AM


Tuesday, December 02, 2008

deep in thoughts

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有时候
我只想静静的


找个人
静静地陪我

________________________________

在这现实的社会



我真的好累

________________________________

互相利用



有时候是难免的



要不然
一定会吃亏


就因为这样
我感到好恶

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我发现到
许多人好假

好假好假


有时看了
真的感到好失望



好难看


it doesnt have to be said
it can be felt
and i can feel it
i'm especially sensitive to all these

and it can get pretty obvious

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*sense o belonging*
it can be sensed easily
if you are welcomed anot

perhaps too cliquish
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maybe it's just me

_______________________________________

smt
it is wiser to just keep quiet
and smile
and feign ignorance



*brag all you want*
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there's no point trying to put your point across
if the other party is unwilling to listen

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我同意 L 的说法

把脚步放慢了
能看得更多
体会的更多
*主要是看这世界有多美丽*

但看得太多
懂得太多
明白 和
了解得太多

却叫人感到更加地失望

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everytime he said dont disappoint me
i feel tt i will
and i think i did

*stressed*
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on a lighter note:

was really glad to meet up xiaoyun ytd!
it has been ages since we met la~
^^

we msned on sunday night
and met on mon le~
*in b/w o all our appts*
cool!

lols.

*i'm glad for this kind o meet up*
make appts immediate :)

and usually those tt says see when free then meet
will usually nv meet
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it's getting mundane
*cannot!cannot!*
must find entertainment!
heex.

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我看上三个包包
和一件衣服
怎么办?

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*disclaimer: pls pardon me for my language section*

i heard these 2 ppl in the T
they sound like

...


the first thing tt came to my mind
"typical b***h"


and the way they talk
w the oohs and the arhs
they sound like they are being f-ed.

they were standing just right outside the door
i wonder if i should open it and go out

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smt i feel so mean
tt i feel like a b**** too
i mean b**** abt ppl


and i can be real mean
to the ppl who have stepped on my toes


but somehow after tt
i'll feel bad sometimes

note:
sometimes


cos i believe thr muz be a reason behind everything
trying to be understanding here

better live in purity
*forgive*
than in hate

but dont take my nice-ness for granted.

it may come a time
when i feel like beating ppl up
tolerance 是有限的


++jingz++;
12/02/2008 11:42:00 PM


Monday, December 01, 2008

i found out the name o the in-describeable today.
ooh.
hahas.

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if a person is really so ez to get along with
one wldnt have to say it
others can feel it

humble pie pls



you're ok
just overly chatty

and
ppl are just being polite


but then again
i'm grateful for your concern
heh. :)


but pls spare me smt
w the grumbles.
will peng de.


perhaps you have no other real source to vent it out
oh wells.
thk goodness i'm not your daughter
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you dont have to treat them so sarcastically
(they didnt do anything to offend you in any way)
and if you can say tt you have alot o experience
then show it

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this is the sign i was talking abt in the previous entry



it wasnt really made use of
(i mean the bin)
and everything was everywhere

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this is what somebody has done to the poor hanger



i found it hanging on the rack

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think cheng is doing the spotcheck

till pei alr knows what cheng is gg to say
lols.

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L said
it's obvious tt i still care alot
just tt i'm holding back


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this particular incident i rmbd.
tt was what made me realised
i felt it. felt it from you.

回忆
好甜.好苦

当时
我真的感受到了
我知道是真的

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*super nice song*
*uploaded :)*

*ps. the song title published on imeen is incorrect*

*the correct one is as seen below*

我是女人 - Kiss

도대체 알 수가 없어 남자들의 마음
원할 땐 언제고 다 주니 이제 떠난대
이런적 처음이라고 너는 특별하다는
그 말을 믿었어 내겐 행복이었어
말을 하지 그랬어 내가 싫어졌다고
눈치가 없는 난 늘 보채기만 했어
너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야
사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까
모든걸 쉽게 다 주면 금방 싫증내는게
남자라 들었어 틀린 말 같진 않아
다시는 속지 않으리 마음먹어 보지만
또다시 사랑에 무너지는게 여자야
말을 하지 그랬어 내가 싫어졌다고

눈치가 없는 난 늘 보채기만 했어
너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야
사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까

[narration]
오늘 우린 헤어졌어 부디 행복하라고
너보다 좋은 사람만나길 바란다고
너도 다른 남자랑 똑같애 날 사랑한다고 말한땐 언제고
솔직히 나 네가 잘 되는거 싫어
나보다 예쁜 여자 만나 행복하게 잘 살면 어떡해
그러다 날 정말 잊어버리면 어떡해
난 이렇게 힘든데 힘들어 죽겠는데
아직도 널 너무 사랑하는데

사랑을 위해서라면 모든 다 할 수 있는
여자의 착한 본능을 이용하지는 말아줘
한여자로 태어나 사랑받고 사는게
이렇게 힘들고 어려울줄 몰랐어
너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야
사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까
너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야
사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까

(translated)
oh , yeah 。。。

到底能否了解男人的心?

何时爱着我 把心交出 而你却弃我而去 你曾说第一次这样心动 去感受一个特别的人这话让我深信不疑 让我幸福 言尤在耳 你的爱却已不再

傻傻的我却还追在你的左右 嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人(重复)

轻易将自己付出 却很快让你厌倦 男人们就是这样无情意


下定决心不再轻易付出 再次陷入爱的漩涡的还是女人

许是因了这样 你不再爱我 傻傻的我却还追在你的左右

嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人

为了爱情 付出一切 心甘情愿 请别不要利用女人这柔弱天性

身为女人 原该被一生宠爱 不曾想爱是如此辛苦和艰难

嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人

嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人



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12/01/2008 12:47:00 AM




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