Thursday, July 31, 2008
我拿刀恨恨地往自己的心割
让自己痛
继续的痛
痛久了就会麻
麻了就不会感觉到痛
麻醉自己
am i very silly?
++jingz++;
7/31/2008 11:45:00 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
if jeecheng can do it in the past.
jeecheng can do it now too.
(if you know whatever i'm talking abt)
i must persevere!
gambatte girl!
i got to.
if not
i'd just fade off.
needing all the moral support too.
i hope.
++jingz++;
7/30/2008 02:43:00 AM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
things are gg well for me
i shld be content w wad i have
i shld be happy
then why do i still miss him so much?
++jingz++;
7/27/2008 01:45:00 AM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
moody.
jeecheng fell down on the steps again.
think collapsed is more o the word.
argh.
my classmate even walked over to helped me up.
so embarrassed la.
ankle hurts.
sighs.
*why do i still think o you so much?*
*wo zhen de bu xiang*
++jingz++;
7/26/2008 12:19:00 AM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
ok.
so weariness has set in.
slpt like nobody's biz in the bus when i was travelling home from school.
argh.
so unglam.
but then again,
i'm tired.
who cares.
hahas.
it's a good thing i managed to wake up and alight at the right stop.
lol.
++jingz++;
7/24/2008 11:42:00 PM
feeling hyper today.
or rather wednesday.
i think i'm gg crazy.
have no idea wad is wrong with me.
the past few days have been tiring for me.
lethargic with entire body aching and feeling sore all over.
but duno why today like abit too energetic.
it's not tt i slpt early on tue night.
met up w jianwen to shop for her fren's prezzie
then study outside
w jianwen's company though she hvt even start sch yet..
(: thx girl! you rock! :)
then salsa class.
( argh. think i embarrassed myself la~)
then stayed up late (till ard 0300)
doin up research for my mkting proj.
woke up in the morning at ard 0930
went for proj meeting at town
stayed in town to study
(cos didnt want to waste time and money travelling to and fro)
then went for work till 2330
still not really feeling tired.
and it's like 0215 alr?
omg-ed.
wad's happening to me?
*sidenote: wynne, do tkc..
get well soon!
and hope its nthing serious..
and pei arh,
hope you get past the tiredness soon :)*
++jingz++;
7/24/2008 01:57:00 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
.tired-ed.
jeecheng needs to catch up w her sch work!
heh.
muz encourage and motivate myself.
jiayou! jiayou!
gambatte!
++jingz++;
7/23/2008 12:22:00 AM
Monday, July 14, 2008
jeecheng is concentrating on being happy.
w/o wanting to hear anything relating to you.
just let me lead my life in peace.
damn you.
++jingz++;
7/14/2008 02:09:00 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
"had so much fun with wynne, ch and conan!"
lol.
wynne ask me to write tt.
if i dont write,
she may think tt i didnt have fun..
lol.
actually, i didnt.
okok...i'm kidding!
i did!
*grins*
++jingz++;
7/13/2008 02:55:00 AM
Monday, July 07, 2008
i bought my 1st pair of levi's!
arh!
not just one, but two...
double arh!
omg-ed!
it's sth i thot i'd nv buy la!
and now
i've got it.
*faints*
it cost me a bomb!!
hellen!!!!!!!!!!!
hahas.
i guess i shld stop thinking of how well he had been to me.
but how well i've treated him as well.
all the stuffs that i used to do for him.
i'm gona do it for other ppl.
(like yupei c: )
it's his lost.
although i still miss him
although he's still in my heart
i will stop thinking o doing things for him anymore
not for him.
not for his family.
not anymore.
++jingz++;
7/07/2008 11:24:00 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
some thots.
talking abt not giving up the entire forest just because of one tree.
tt's frm jonathan - johnson's fren.
but i think tt's the entire point of being in a relationship.
in making a choice of which tree you want to spent your entire life growing old with.
having made a choice
you'll have to stick w it
support it thru the different seasons.
nurturing it w sunlight and rain
giving the care and concern needed for growth
tt's where the love develops
and furthers.
it takes alot o
patience and time
love, care and concern
alot o weathering
to really pull it thru
giving up = letting wither away
after so much
was it worth it?
no wonder thr are some trees tt wither away so quickly.
bocs ppl gave up wanting to take care and nurture it
halfway thru its growth
the other party gave up
why?
cos they want to try planting other trees?
or are they tired o nurturing the plant anymore?
in order
for the plant to grow well
patience is needed
love is needed
consistent care and concern is needed
commuciation is needed
faith is needed
trust is needed
and most imptly,
believe.
the plant wld grow big and strong.
with enough rain and sunlight
added fertilisers would speed up and strengthen the gowth
similarly in a r/s
for it to grow well and strong
effort must be put in to sustain it well
for it to pass thru the good and the bad
to survive thru
we wld have to believe
stay in check
communicate
trust each other
and
work tgt hand in hand
the encouragement
sharing the joys and tears
making matters worthwhile
working out problems tgt
believing and trusting and having faith in each other tt no matter what, things wld turn out well in the end. no matter how difficult times had been. its ought to be pulled thru. thr's always a rainbow after every storm. just tt whether you see it anot. or rather if you choose to see it anot.
only then wld we see the fruit.
and taste the sweetness of it.
and smile at the silly moments of the bad
and be glad tt we had pulled it thru
pateince love and care
believe and trust
holding on and not giving up - it doesnt mean dragging
it means how much you are willing to work things out tgt
how much you believe and trust
why?
bocs you have to believe that it'll work out
love.believe.patience.trust.
when i agreed to step into tt r/s
i had alr chosen to give up the rest o the forest.
in your case,
it shld have been the same
but now
you have chosen to let this plant you looked for wither away
this lil plant tt you have chosen to let go
is now trying to survive thru
w/o the air, water and sunlight it was once provided with.
alot is needed for it to grow again
pulling thru...
付出了这么多
得到的又是什么
值得吗？
爱情。。
牵挂这么多
问题这么多
顾虑这么多
烦恼这么多
人偏偏还在这人海茫茫的世界里寻找自己的爱情
寻找的到底又是什么？
人还真是矛盾
老天涯还真会捉弄人
++jingz++;
7/06/2008 12:19:00 AM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
why do you still have to hurt me like tt?
++jingz++;
7/03/2008 11:49:00 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
yes, i still think o him
but i'm perfectly fine today :)
i will get on well
*smiles*
watched "10 promises to a dog" w yupei and jianwen
realised i've been to the movie alot this hols.
omg.
this is where my money went.
*Pengz*
but the movie's good
the plot.
is super touching.
i felt the pain. the lost.
both in the movie and for myself as well.
cried like nobody's biz though i alr tried to control my tears le.
but then
i feel fortunate.
fortunate enough to have loved and being loved.
to know tt thr are ppl out thr caring and concerning abt me.
like guardian angels.
i know you're thr somewhere too
and it's good to know that
what we had was sweet
but i think you are not ready,
i think i understand
but smt i dont
but it's ok.
really.
promises.
after a period o time
ppl tend to forget
not intentionally
but it happens.
just shows how humans are.
not knowing how to appreciate and treasure
regretting only when they lose it.
may it be their loved ones, frens... or anything at all
only then they will know.
how much it actually matters.
just like the girl to the dog,
he was my world.
just like the dog has to go,
i know i just have to let go
wad's yours will be yours.
if its meant to be it will meant to be.
perhaps it's just not the right time.
and we're still young.
for fear. to protect.
to go on or let go.
you have chosen to let go.
and i will let you go.
till you're ready and sure again
i'll be here.
just right here.
i just dont wish to see you change for the worse.
it'll sadden me.
true, we're still young.
but at least still continue to love yourself
dont let yourself go to waste.
be a better person.
let me continue to be proud of you.
i do not wish for you to hold yourself back in front o me.
i know you abit too well.
dont pretend. thr's no need to.
cos i understand.
just be yourself.
ily.
goodbye my dear
++jingz++;
7/02/2008 02:26:00 AM
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
GEMINI - The Twin
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners
Very Good at confusing people...
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone.
Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily.
They are great at losing things and are forgetful.
Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
Trustworthy.
Always happy.
VERY Loud.
Talkative.
Outgoing
VERY FORGIVING.
Loves to make out.
Has a beautiful smile.
Generous.
Strong.
THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.
...
tt's frm an email i received.
i wished the always happy part is true.
and the strong part too.
hopefully, really irresistable.
wahahas.
(which i dont really think so)
*think i revealed too much abt my feelings and thots in the previous post*
perhaps i shld take it down
++jingz++;
7/01/2008 02:00:00 AM
