Sunday, January 07, 2007
it has been a long long time since i last blogged....
so long since i've ever shared my tots...
now, it's already 2007 and i'm turning 20 soon. hit the 2- le~.sighs.
last year had passed by a wheez, i didnt realised it was gone. i feel unaccomplished. i dun feel that i've done anything well at all.
i've changed a couple of jobs. starting as a shop assistant at a boutique, then as a "admin host" in sentosa and now, as a childcare "tcher" at a childcare centre. i'm not sure of the change of envt or wad, but i guessed i have changed somehow or rather this year. for the better or worse, i have no idea. i do hope tt it's for the better but it doesnt seem that way. sighs.
my mom had even complained to my aunts and whoever tt'll listened tt i've changed for the worse. overhearing her conversation only makes me feel more frustrated. i've tried in all means i can to please her. but tt'll nv seem enough. there'll always be more to expect from me once i've done sth.
indeed, it's true tt i've spend less time at home now.i know it myself. but i do try to spend some time at home with you guys. i work and i need my rest too. you ppl expect me to come home straight from work everyday and help out w chores and all. i have a life too. i want to spend time w my friends and boyfriend as well, for goodness sake. i'm trying to juggle my time b/w everyone. to give my time to ppl. to hang out. to catch up. i'm a greedy person i guess. i want to maximise my time so much that i bring my boyfriend to friends' gathering. ask him to spend time and accompany me at my home. so that i can do my things as well. but i think some ppl dun like it. not that i'm picking on anyone or pinpointing anyone in particular. it's just that i understa that fact. but pls understand tt i'm greedy. or if you really dun wish to, just let me know and i'll know what to do. currently, i have work, friends, family and boyfriend to juggle b/w. hopefully, i'll be able to register for my uni successfully this year. and what now? i'll have sch and cca to add in as well. plus if i want to stay in hostel. that's 3 more additional things on top of the other 4. and yesh, i'm planning to continue working part time if i can while i'm schling.i need to support myself financially. how am i gg to cope? i also duno. - stressed up-
it has been a yr plus for me in this r/s. and yes, i guess gone are the honeymoon period.not that i want to admit it. sighs. though now we still have our sweet moments, i cant help wishing that we're still in the ultimate sweet period. i guess our quarrels and fights spoiled the time huh. maybe we shld really plan in quarrels in our time so that it wont spoil anymore plans..but i cant help wishing that the honeymoon period wld return. may this year be a good one for both of us though the 1st day of this year didnt went quite smoothly as planned. and may our fights and quarrels only bring us closer and not drive us apart. but i know i may be another difficult year for us with more huddles to overcome as our lifestlye changes with you ord-ing soon and starting school. with me, starting school as well (i hope).
last but not least,
here's wishing all a happy new year
and
may all of my friends and families be blessed with good health and happiness.
tkc ppl.
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1/07/2007 12:52:00 AM
