Tuesday, September 30, 2008
expectations.
does anyone not hold any for me?
i'm really really tired.
smt
i just want to sink into a deep deep slp
每天灿烂的笑容
也是自欺欺人吗?
++jingz++;
9/30/2008 11:12:00 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
deciding b/w
human resource
biz finance
or
marketing
*my non-uni pals tell me tt human resource suits me
my uni pals tell tt human resource doesnt suit me
they say finance or mkting is better for me.
meimei says to major in mkting and minor in finance*
i have no idea.
how?how?
need to decide real soon.
sighs.
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i realised tt my plans for the future includes you.
i'm so gona remove you from them.
++jingz++;
9/27/2008 09:28:00 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
mamma mia!
*grins*
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ok.
so i'm damn embarrassed today.
think i blushed like nobody's business.
i didnt even realised i blushed so easily.
darn.
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had a good walk along the southern ridges w my proj mates (-1) on mon
and the weather's not too bad
*smile*
and a great tuesday spent w jianwen
*grins*
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smt i feel like i'm leading a double life
++jingz++;
9/25/2008 01:21:00 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
a milion thots on my mind today.
this is gona be a v random post.
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life.complications.
optimism.pessimism.
understanding.tolerance.
honesty.deceiving.
what's real? what's not?
*i really like the sessions.
relaxing.
but i always seem to be thinking alot*
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ppl may be understanding.
but may not be as tolerable.
i can understand.
but the way some ppl put things across,
i cannot tolerate.
so pls dont push your limit.
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i think tolerance is the highest attainment for a person to have.
just being understanding is not enough.
i can be really understanding.
but my tolerance level is not v high.
striving to achieve tt.
*and although i'm trying to achieve tt,
it isnt meant for ppl to bully me*
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still in the process o learning more abt myslf.
and am rather surprised by what i've learnt.
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i love and hate freedom.
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the world is really complicated.
我不喜欢上等社会
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things and situations can really change at the speed o lightning.
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i am resistant to change.
i can adapt.i can learn.
but i dont like.
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sometimes.
we just got to believe and trust.
fear.
puts us off.
makes us pessimistic
i think i like jap culture.
always so encouraging.
gambatte! jiayou!
we shld learn from them
being positive.
the world wont stop turning bcos o us.
the sun will still rise in the morning
and sets in the evening.
life is short.
live it to the max.
smile whenever you can.
laugh whenever you feel like it.
dont let things get you down.
*self-motivating*
*smile*
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believing in the positive.
no matter how bad things can be.
it may get better.it may get worse.
who knows?
this is life.
we gotta believe in it.
although i hate it.
and smt
dont feel like believing.
it sucks.
but we still have to believe.
in order for things to get better.
and i want to believe things will get better.
and i believe things will.
it definitely will.
have courage.
for me.for you.
for everyone.
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after so much o typing,
i realised i must as well do the blog chain thingy kareen asked me to do.
nxt time ba
++jingz++;
9/21/2008 11:40:00 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
～project is finally over～
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why do i have to be kept being reminded o you?
you are so out o my life
歌名：眼泪的味道
歌手：Energy
所属专辑：最后的乐园
记忆深处的美好
星空还刻着你的微笑
数不清多少夜晚
画在你手心的记号自
轻轻靠在我怀抱
闻你发丝淡淡的味道
怀念我们曾经
多么单纯的美好
过去的美好 我想有一天我们都能忘掉
想你的星空下 星星不再闪耀
我想我知道 眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃
我想我知道 眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃
受伤的翅膀 总有一天会慢慢 慢慢的变好
能飞得更高 当失去你的依靠
轻轻靠在我怀抱
闻你发丝淡淡的味道
怀念我们曾经
多么单纯的美好
过去的美好 我想有一天我们都能忘掉
想你的星空下 星星不再闪耀
我想我知道 眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃
我想我知道 眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃
受伤的翅膀 总有一天会慢慢 慢慢的变好
能飞得更高 当失去你的依靠
Don't wanna miss you
逝去的不能再留住
只是过往每个画面
都成为我们的束缚
对爱情的无助
我想我知道 眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃
我想我知道 眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃
受伤的翅膀 总有一天会慢慢 慢慢的变好
能飞得更高 当失去你的依靠
我想我知道眼泪的味道
++jingz++;
9/20/2008 02:49:00 PM
Thursday, September 18, 2008
alot o ppl seems to think tt i'm a strong girl.
i must be one then.
jeecheng
you can de.
*smile*
jiayou!
*live life.
the world wont stop turning for anyone*
++jingz++;
9/18/2008 10:39:00 PM
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
and ohs,
miss smart-ass editor
didnt come today either
*argh.
my keys dropped into the drain.
yf, sylvia and me had a hard time trying to remove the cover of the drain.
just to retrieve my keys.
got alot o ants crawling ard
yucky.
if we videotaped it dw,
it's gona be so funny.
lol.*
++jingz++;
9/17/2008 01:00:00 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
today is what i call a real group project meeting
at least it finally feels like a group project.
not individual project.
think work better w/o her.
ytd she was saying
"thr's no need to meet what"
so we met w/o her today.
and said
"we meet on wed to go thru then done le
so you guys just have to send me what you have done by tue
so i can put them tgt"
she has no idea we still struggling thru.
and what has she done?
and then she also said
"but i duno if i can make it on wed anot leh"
i so want to strangle her.
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anws,
a few thots on my mind today.
was msn-ing w kareen just now..
and realised we're both a bus person.
heh.
give me a choice of taking a bus or a train?
i'd rather take the bus even if it's a super long bus ride as compared to the mrt which may be faster. anytime.
(unless i'm rushing for time)
*but i wldnt mind having a chauffeur*
hahas.
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someone commented that
i appear to be a strong girl on the ouside.
w a soft character in the inside.
a nice girl w a golden heart
dots.
so what?
too nice a person gets bullied.
too golden a heart gets hurt.
i have nthing but that i guess.
when i countered tt i can be real mean.
tt's when i have character?
confidence in studies?
nah. i'm not tt good.
and no confidence in love?
i have no idea if i still believe in that anymore.
oh wells,
who cares.
++jingz++;
9/16/2008 10:51:00 PM
i guess i'm blogging v frequently now
but short posts though.
heh.
i'm supposed to be concentrating......
argh.
feeling lazy.
hahas.
gambatte.
gambatte.
gambatte!
++jingz++;
9/16/2008 03:54:00 PM
totally pissed.
i spell
P.I.S.S.E.D
oh damn
oh wells,
forget it.
jeecheng,
jiayou! :)
++jingz++;
9/16/2008 12:01:00 AM
Monday, September 15, 2008
中秋节快乐
这个节日的定义
对我而言
真的有好多回忆
怀念着几年前的今天
我们在一起之前的第一个约会
our very first date
the date i finally agreed to go on w you after my prelims
i still rmb..
..as the memories had stayed
i still rmb your silly antics
to make me lean on your shoulder
the things you did
so tt i'd be close to you
we went esplanade
with your frens who just got tgt
*your main excuse to get me out to acc you so you wont lightbulb so obviously*
i still recall
the lil' heart you made out o candles
tt were supposedly meant for your friends who just got tgt
lil' did i know tt they were meant for me..
when you told me tt they were meant for your friends initially,
i really did believed you
and was thinking
that you're such a sweet friend
your girlfriend wld be really lucky.
and lucky i was.
just as you felt for me...
but tt's all in the past
reminiscing abt it brings tears to my eyes...
i'm really sorry friends.
but i cant help it.
i still think. i still rmb.
今年的这个中秋
是我们没一起度过的第一个佳节
分手后的这个中秋
你又是着么过的呢？
在这花好月圆的夜晚
你有在想我吗？
++jingz++;
9/15/2008 01:41:00 AM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
“心情不好”
reminds me of jerome.
i suddenly miss my lil' children
真的好想他们
rmbering this lil' incident:
while watching a show one evening
jerome came over to sit by my side...
jerome: miss jee, 我不开心
me: 为什么？
jerome: 不懂。
me: ... 我们一起看 barney 好吗？
*bcos he likes barney*
me: 有没有开心一点？
Jerome *shakes head*
我心情不好
me *sighs*
*hugs jerome*
and realised he's feverish
小孩子的天真
真令人感动
he's a really really sweet boy
真的好想好想他
++jingz++;
9/13/2008 10:09:00 PM
心情不好
我也不知道为什么
也许是压力吧?
或许是失望?
时间的紧迫
让我感到有点无助
我好像又迷失了方向
*找回该有的心情
找回应有的信心*
++jingz++;
9/13/2008 01:19:00 PM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
歌曲:我要快乐
歌手:张惠妹
又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着
味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳
有些人
不抱了才温暖 离开了才不恨
我 早应该割舍
我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是 真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了 伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声
听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳
有些人
不抱了才温暖 离开了才不恨
我 早应该割舍
我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是 真的
++jingz++;
9/10/2008 01:33:00 AM
Sunday, September 07, 2008
impression last.
ppl see and judge.
so what happens?
ppl are being categorised.
or rather, stereotyped.
so we have to behave according to the norms.
to how ppl expect us to be.
conformity to the norms of the society.
but wad are the norms exactly?
does it really matter?
and i, for one, admits tt i do fear how ppl view me at times.
so tt i'll be deemed normal?
to portray a good image o myself?
although everyone alr knows tt no one's perfect,
ppl still seek perfection.
ppl still want the best.
ironic huh?
who am i?
i'm still wondering.
i behave differently w different ppl.
at different places.
different occasions.
different mood.
but different situations calls for different behaviour
so i guess that's the norm?
and being with different ppl, basing on their perception,
you too have to adapt to them?
for them to accept you.
i guess i have mutiple personality too.
who am i trying to lie to?
others?
myself?
lying is just a form o running away.
from the problems.
from the reality.
a mean of escape that will not last.
its self denial.
it's just short term
bcos you have your conscious to face.
when you come face-to-face w your conscoius.
it'll still be there.
and i guess tt's the worst part.
bcos you're hiding.
in order to be honest w others
you have to be honest w yourself.
and that.
is not easy.
it will never be.
no matter how much.
there will always be times when you rather not.
i'm struggling hard to be honest w myself
and doing much self discovery as a result as well.
it is not easy.
very tough in fact
++jingz++;
9/07/2008 04:47:00 PM
freak.
i cant believe i let this happen to myself.
argh.
this will NOT happen again.
++jingz++;
9/07/2008 01:57:00 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
think jeecheng is opening up to her salsa classes.
enjoying them more.
*smiles*
silly silly silly
but today was tough.
argh.
giddy frm all the turns.
*groans*
*still sick but recovering*
mab test... ... ...
*oh nos.
my sis was telling me tt i was discussing abt sch work w myself in my slp.
bad sign*
++jingz++;
9/02/2008 11:42:00 PM
feeling better.
but still sick.
sighs.
i wanna recover quickly.....
tmr got mab test.
duno if i'll breeze thru anot.
seems ok but i like know nthing.
half here half thr leh~
hellen said
“你发烧把脑袋也给烧坏了？”
因为我说了很多废话
也许真的是烧坏了脑袋
也作了不该做的梦
ps. wynne, jiayou!
you shld know what i'm talking abt.
*smiles*
++jingz++;
9/02/2008 01:02:00 AM
