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Monday, May 29, 2006

before i start off this blog, i just want to thank some ppl..
ppl who have shown their care and concern for me..

and especially to these ppl..

thx to yupei.
thx to amanda.
thx to xiao yun.
thx to miss faizah.

and last but not least
to my dear dear johnson.

thx for being here for me, for being with me.

to miss faizah and xiao yun:
thx for the email and letter and all the words of encouragement.you'll have no idea how much it means to me...

to yupei and amanda:
thx for dropping by and the calls..you guys have really helped me pulled thru

and to johnson:
thx for being w me all thru all the times.for letting me cry and making me smile.and for allowing me to vent out my frustrations. for giving me hope and helping me to see the light in the vast darkness.for holding my hand and guiding me thru when i'm lost.

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but i'm so sorry ppl...
i did not get into ntu as well..

but really really..its still thx and thx bcos i have no idea how to show my appreciation le~

i will face it bravely

and my dear wang zi,
i will listen to your advice and try not to give up so easily
xie xie ni gei wo de an wei he gu li..
i will consider all the options tt's available now..

i know i am still a big disappointment especially to my parents. to myself too..

but

i have to be brave. i have to be strong.

and i will...

++jingz++;
5/29/2006 10:33:00 AM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

i feel like a fool for believing i cld make it.

i was a fool.

i shld have known..
that with my kind of shitty results..
and the tough competition outside..
i wld not be able to enter the uni

..i was a fool for hoping..

the usp was nthing but a joke

a joke to make me believe thr's hope when thr's none

i must be the joke of the school.

shld have known tt they wldnt have wanted me in the first place

..

sighs

now, i'm really praying hard

and hoping

that ntu wldnt dash my dreams

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pls pls send me a letter of acceptance

if not, i wld really be a failure
a failure to make my parents proud
an embarrassment to my parents

i'm really sorry

sorry i'm not smart enough
sorry tt i'm lazy
sorry tt i'm only able to make you worry

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and no glory

none at all

and to my dear dear sis..
sorry if the hopes they pinned on me are all now levied to you
you must be having a great level of stress...
this is your a level yr..
jiayou! just give your best shot. i noe you can de..

++jingz++;
5/16/2006 10:12:00 AM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

i received the letter from NUS le...

finally..

there's no more painful wait for me..

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but

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it was a letter of rejection..

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..my tears seemed to have a mind of their own..

..they wldnt listen to me..

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let me be strong

++jingz++;
5/14/2006 07:54:00 PM