Friday, November 09, 2007
i have changed.
over these 2 yrs.
ppl do change over time, i know.
but i dont like the way i'm changing.
i'm no longer that sweet young innocent girl.
am now more to the wild side.
and loud.
well, i have that in me.just that i was tryng to tame it all the while in the past.
now that it's out, it wont go back into hiding.
is letting out my wild side a mistake?
perhaps it's the current envt i've set myself in?
my character has grown stronger.at the same time, i've become more stubborn.
want to find my old self back.
felt mature for my age in the past.
now trying to find my youth back?
so have become more childish instead?
that kind o non-understanding i shld be and havee n the past?
or is it bcos being in the working envt for 2 yrs le~
while all my freinds are still studying in sch
and bcos i've seen so much o the working world that i'm so sick and and tired o it?
and hat makes me want to go back to sch to study or is ti bcos o peer pressure?
or is it i really want to go back to study?
i'm quite fortuanate alr.
my colleagues and ex-coleagues all treat me quite well de.
but i've seen the ugly side of things as well.just that i'm not involved.
and they're quite protective o me.cos i'm still young.
mayb to a pt where i still can be a child.
and i indulge in it.taking the chance to be an ignorant kid.
i shld be embarrassed by myself.
now i need that kind o maturity back le ba?
i've reach the age when i sld be..
and i'm finding difficulties.
my sis just told me i shldnt say i want the old me back.
i shld just say i want to change for the better..
(you see, now my younger sis has become more like the older sis.
cnt cnt...
must turn the other way back round.)
"want" is a v strong word...
it can do wonders...
-quoting frm her
my blog entry have turned another direction...
but i feel better..
thkyew mei..
thx wuan...
++jingz++;
11/09/2007 10:18:00 PM
