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Sunday, November 30, 2008

thk you for helping me out w the hard drive thingy

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i dont know.
i really dont know

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it seems like

..

we're just affecting each other as much

is this really a good idea?
is thr really a way?

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i realised i'm v sensitive to ecp.

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another realisation
i'm missing quite a number of ppl
好想念

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today work is crazy

just look at the queue.
*taken from my counter which is right at the end*
*and it's not a str8 queue. snake!*

and see what the "nice" shoppers did.
they took the items and discard them at a side

when we actually have wagons
tt asks customers to leave whatever unwanted items there

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john little internal ... ...

the min i reached,
she kept pushing me to go watch the scene

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gone is the interrogation
more complains and grumbles
tahan!

i would have thot she got more experience
but she actually listened and did what i said.
wah~
*peng*

but then hor.. ..

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on a lighter note:

my "nxt door" promoter, carol and me

she arh. likes to tease me.
(bcos o my partner)

and we were gossiping abt
...
tt in-describeable staff
lol

her husband always come to wait for her after work
*so sweet*

++jingz++;
11/30/2008 12:35:00 AM

Saturday, November 29, 2008

ai-yee!!!
i missed the auspicious date

was too tired to create the new
*sighs*

wuan,
help me choose the new auspicious date?

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sweet but fierce

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simple yet complicated

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i think i've been thinking alot lately

perhaps abit too much

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i'm driving myself crazy

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distinction b/w relationships
and the level o it

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i think my girlfriends are gg to kill me

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eek.
i'm gg crazy being in the midst o so many sales item

feel more like doing shopping

temptations.

argh.

no.no.
jeecheng, you cannot!

*pei, scold cheng le?*

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i feel like i'm being interrogated

i'm not just another typical dumb girl
so dont talk abt
"the girls nowadays arh..."

i also girl leh.
and not all girls are the same

and yup,
this is not my first job.

other than being overly chatty
(oh yes, she is and she knows it.
can even tell me her sons keep saying she v naggy
*pengz*
and give me reasons tt it cld be probably due to the fact tt she doesnt have any daughters)

and the interrogation

i think she's ok
heh.

but i think her sons better find her a homely daughter-in-law
if not the sons sure poor thing de
and i'm gonna pity tt girl
since she got so much complains abt "the girls nowadays"

overall,
i think i kinda gained her "respect"
after the "interrogation"
she wldnt dare say so much
or look down on me
i am not just another 小妹妹

*i'm proud of who i am*

but one can nv be too careful
watch your words
especially in the workforce

words within words
message within message
catch the meaning behind
but dont interpret wrongly
*careful*

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i'm tired from all the work

so many ppl
especially after work
the trains are jammed pack.

i suddenly wished i struck lottery
won a car and know how to drive
or better still
have a chauffeur
*so tired*
and it takes so long to get home

or just bump into some1 who can send me home on the way

*in your dreams jeecheng!*
eek.

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i'm missing...

i'm missing..

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i dont know why i 突然之间
很想念 wuan today

so much so tt i msg her just to say
i miss you

another 贴心的朋友

我不是只是那种说说的
this kind o things
i only say it if i mean it

but i do know some ppl say it
just to say it
and dont really mean it
tt sucks

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yupei,
jiayou!

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jol,
jiayou!

thr's nthing wrong
nthing wrong
i just feel tt you shldnt

old habits die hard
a leopard nv changes its spots

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a nice song

Love Me For A Reason - Boyzone

Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please

It must be easy for you
To love the things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be

And I never know girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...

Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love turned to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand

I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

I'm just a little olf-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

*sweet*

++jingz++;
11/29/2008 12:12:00 AM

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

for the previous post,
the part abt the rich and poor

it does not include those who are wholeheartedly in a r/s w rich ppl

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i suddenly feel v lucky
a fortunate girl
^^
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for the jeecheng tt's here today
i think i have especially 2 guys to thk for

one is my dad
the other
you know who you are

tt is for the especially part

and of course not forgetting the impt ppl
and ppl i have ard me :)
*treasuring you peeps*
^^

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i realised i like to reminise abt the past
i'm always missing the good old days.

sighs.
i dont know if it's a good or bad thing.

做人还必须向前看

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i realised i enjoy talking to you
and i missed it badly

oh mans.
what is this?
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work today seems better.

but tt's this person.. .. ..
i dont know how to describe

cant decide b/w
...

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wuan, rmb this song?
*heard this song on the radio while working today
and it defo brought back memories*

ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD (The Corrs)

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends
I'm more than O.K.

I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams
but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through
the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away

(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime
not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah
I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)

++jingz++;
11/26/2008 11:42:00 PM

i'd prefer a long bus ride
than many short ones
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oh nos,
this is no good.
no good.

sighs.

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work ytd was tiring
and it was like

...

*oh mans*

made me think of the old days when i used to worked in the boutique
the good.the bad.the sweetness.the innocence.
the fun.the teasing.the ppl.

i used to look forward to the end o work in eagerness to ..

now i look forward to the end
bcos i just want to get home and slp

so tired till i just wished tt i have pte transport to go home

tired till a pt when i cldnt care for image.
glam or unglam.
i slpt in the train and bus.

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some thots

what's real?
i dont know.

i know some ppl do things for others so tt they get sth back in return.
benefit for benefit.
consideration.
eeky.
some can even openly ask
"so what do i get in return?"

stunned.
but tt's the world huh.
but for tt,
at least
you know
scary wld be those silently wanting sth in return
which you may not have an idea what.

my point is
if you want to help
or do anything for anybody
do it wholeheartedly
do it bcos you want to

not bcos you get benefits
unless you're talking abt work.
that's legal issues.

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*disclaimer:
this are just my thots.
no ill meaning
no ill intentions
and refering to no one in particular*

the idea abt sugar daddy/mummies/ ... ... ...

i think i'm not into it.
in fact i think i'm digusted by the idea.

but some may give resons tt the world is just so practical
they have no choice or whatsoever.
but i think anyone has a choice to choose
i agree abt the practicality part
too practical in fact.
tt's the disgusting part.
ppl making use of one another
so bmuch so tt sometimes
you dont know what's real and what's not

money cannot buy happiness.
money cannot buy sth true.

i think it's sad.
its rather pathetic in a way.
the old rich guy just having a young pretty girl to show off
the young pretty girl just for his money.

yup,have always joked abt getting some1 rich.
but those are just jokes.

i know i'd rather have some1 not rich
some1 i know tt i can work towards our future tgt
some1 whom i know i'll truly love
and him truly love me back
thr'll be hardships
of course
but i believe i'd be happier off
than getting some1 who's darn rich and
i have no idea how he spends his money away

ppl aged.
looks and appearance will change.

so what happens when the girls doesnt look as pretty anymore?

it's true tt w/o money
there are alot o things you cant do
but even w money,
it's not everything tt you can get as well.

some tell me tt my thinking wil change as i get older
it'd be real easy to succumb to monetary benefits if one really needs money
but i doubt so for me
i hold my grounds strongly
i dont play w emotions
i'm not a person who goes for the riches
i'd rather scrimp and save and work hard for sth i really want

i dont waiver easily

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++jingz++;
11/26/2008 11:23:00 AM

Monday, November 24, 2008

不哭的人不代表坚强
会哭的人不代表懦弱

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到现在
我还是认为
一个人必须活得快乐

健康重要
但是快乐跟重要

我会开开心心
快快乐乐
坚强的过以后的日子

and yes, this is me.
always the strong girl you have known

or rather,
many knows
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now tt i'm not thr to tkc o you anymore
pls tk gd care o yourself

as for me
i also know tt
i'll take gd care o myself too

no one has blamed you
no one hates you.
i dont hate you at all.
really.
even my parents. they dont.

its yourself.
pls forgive yourself.
i dont know how
and i dont know when
but you have to
..

get over your own barrier
i sure do hope you'll be able to
and only you can help yourself w tt
i can only play a supportive role

only then

..

only then

...

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歌名：原谅我

歌手：萧敬腾

所属专辑：同名专辑

请不要分了以後
　
还记得亲吻过的承诺

你的永久　已不属於我

默默低头　那时我很多
　
话哽在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐
　
或许我爱太多想太多

我能感受　他比我适合

爱放了手　我伪装冷漠
　
比你先说分手

请原谅我　原谅我不成熟

不爱你是借口　好让你离开我

请原谅我　好想自私将你占有

一个寂寞就给我承受

换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後　

还记得亲吻过的承诺

你的永久　已不属於我

默默低头　那时我很多　

话哽在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐　

或许我爱太多想太多

我能感受　他比我适合

爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　

比你先说分手

请原谅我　原谅我不成熟

不爱你是借口　好让你离开我

请原谅我　好想自私将你占有

你的寂寞就给我承受

换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过

亲吻过你的脆弱

其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我　必须假装爱错

别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口

原谅我　没有解释太多　心痛

别无所求　彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得

我難過　我才懂

is part of this what you want me to know?

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it's surprising
after so long
things can still be so coincidental

i dont know what all these are trying to tell me
i have been so determined

and 通常
当一个女人做了决定
是很难改的

now what?

难道一切真的是命中注定吗？
我真的搞不懂

i made a decision.
one tt leaves me sad as well

but i dont know if it's really wise anot.
it doesnt help knowing tt my heart still skips a beat

but i'm ok.
i really am

taking it easy

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argh.
my whole body is really aching.
sighs.

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thx for your kind intentions
but dont want means dont want.
stop irritating me.
i dont care if other jobs seems slavery
as long as i think it'll be better
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i would be opening a new blog a/c soon

as for this blog
it'll just be left somewhere in this virtual world

serving as part o my memories and thots
all the precious
the hurts
the happiness

or perhaps not a full closure
cos i've heard it's quite a place for ppl to emo

and certain friends like certain entries

perhaps

perhaps

i'll come back some day to blog.

*dont wry friends who want to read,
i'll inform the min i start a new one*

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++jingz++;
11/24/2008 09:40:00 PM

Friday, November 21, 2008

a hundreds thots in mind.

and

sleepless nights
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sometimes i look at how the world is turning to
i feel sad

i feel the world is becoming more pathetic.

true,
thr are still beauty in the world
and we shld be living well bcos o these beauty

somtimes i can just look at these wonders of the world
this beautiful world
and smile to myself

but human.
i think are ruining it

the world is dying.
the ppl changing.
inevitable.
for the better or for the worse?

i dont know if i'm emo-ing now or what
but it's just..

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i think mankind
has made the simple world
into a complicated one

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saw my bro's grad day itinery

really brings back memories.
bittersweet.

i really miss the good old days
@ queenstown

esp when i saw the lyrics of
auld lang sync

tears formed at the corner o my eyes
nostalgia

i dont know if it's just me or what
am i too sentimental?
too emotional?

i hold memories v close to my heart
and when i think
i really rmb all the moments

i dont even know it's good or bad thing

i rmb
the way we stood on the chairs
and sang tt song
we cried and slinged our arms over each other

and we even got ourselves reprimanded by the tcher for doing tt
bcos they believe we shld uphold an image

even the close friendship forged
graduation spells separation for most of us
天下无不散之宴席

*really miss those good old days*

i think those were the best years of my life
young and carefree

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anws,
on a lighter note:

met up w carasse!
after so long.
lols.

days in the mcd.
*also part o my sec sch days then*

so many queenstownians working thr.
wells, she isnt from queenstown

but this goes showing how long we've known each other
and tt's like when i was 14?
and how long ago was tt?
abt 5-6yrs alr!!!!!

wah~i feel so old now.

really glad to meet up w her :)

those were the days.
even working at mcd was fun

did i just said fun?
lols.

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met a new fren today
and we just click

glad tt i chose to go union tonight

^^

cos it's not always tt you can just talk to a person easily
esp when you just know a person

usually i'll take a long time b4 i really open up
although i may seem friendly
and easy to talk to

it takes time
and some ppl
even knowing for some time
still dont know me

or perhaps

maybe

i just choose to keep to myself

oh wells

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++jingz++;
11/21/2008 01:29:00 AM

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

think i've done alot o stupid things.
and from somewhere i heard
ppl says its ok.

it's only thru mistakes tt ppl learn.
and as ppl learn
they become wiser.

i hope i'm wise enough now

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i dont know by doing tt
i am harming myself
or
making myself better

i'm in a state o dilemma

i'm confused
i'm scared.i'm afraid.
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sometimes i feel like being selfish.
i dont want to care so much
but i cant do tt

tt's irresponsibilty.
i have to think o others

i wish...

..

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sometimes i just wish all these worries and hurt will go away

go away

go far far away

and leave me alone

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i love
i hate
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ohs,
i definitely hate irresponsible two-timers!

purposely out to hurt.
if not, it's selfish bastards.

and if you cant forget your first,
do not make use of another.

it's not fair.

you'll end up hurting each other

and if you think it's fun.
the other may not.

feelings are not meant to be played.
dont hurt others just bcos you're hurt b4.

what goes ard, comes ard.

damn you.

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eek.
i think i'm super embarrassed le la~

need more practise!!!!

but its ok.
i laughed at myself too.
felt so embarrassed tt i just sat down on the floor and laughed.

hahas.

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anws, photoblog updated.
the one on the visit to the southern ridges.
^^
more to come!

think the sci centre one will take a long time...

156 pics!!!
omg-ed.

++jingz++;
11/19/2008 03:10:00 PM

Thursday, November 13, 2008

disclaimer:
do not read if you dont like what i post here

or if you object to anything i say
pls have valid grounds.

bcos

this is not gg to be nice post.
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i want to scream

and i damn hell

feel like ar-bishing some ppl up.

*pei, dont wry, it's not you although i feel like doing tt to you sometimes.
but your ar-bishing is different kind de*

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i dont understand guys.
i dont think i nv will anw.

wad kind o idiotic brains they have.

all of you stop!!!!!

words cant be trusted.

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if you dont even think tt you can accept the age gap,
then dont lead ppl on.

damn you.

now then you say.
after all the harm tt you've done?

f***-ing hell.
get lost.
get a life.
and dont make my friend your sparetire.

i dont know if it was real for you anot
but you hurt my friend
you get it frm me.

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another.
if you are not ready for marriage
then why proposed?

and then say you're not prepared.
when the date is so near?
what kind of nonsense is this?

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then you.
alr got such a good girlfriend.

still thinking o doing things tt may lead you upset her?

still want to make the same damn hell mistake?
eek.

i may not know your girlfriend personally
but i stand up for the female species
you guys are just so damn bastard.

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and what good feelings?
i dont want any.

go away.
and anything tt you say now will make me think twice
i dont want to lose a friend

so you better watch wad you say
you just made me become v weary o you
i dont know what you say is real.
or what you say is fake.
or what your intention is

just stay clear well out o my path

and rich ppl.
will nv know how difficult it is to make a living based on yourself
i work hard for my own living expenses.

dont tempt me w money to do things which i dont wish to do.
although thr's nthing wrong w doing tt and tt its actually a good offer,

it seems v tempting.
but i feel weird.

and i dont want to be alone w you.

oh shit you.

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and ohs,
i'm not interested in flings.

so back off.
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so basically,
what does it sums up?

guys are bastards.
they are trouble makers
they only create problem for us,
the ladies.

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on a lighter note:

it's good to see elisa again.
^^
we gets hysterics
another crazy
easily worked up friend
lols.

talk non-stop
hahas.
think we can just walk and talk
and not notice anything else

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today i personally cooked maggi for my sis by myself
ok, it's the first time i cooked w/o any help for someone
so feel honoured ok?
plus it's egg special hor~
bleah.

i know it sounds funny.
but tt's the truth.

yupei, dont jealous wor~
heex.
make sth for you nxt time.
but 难吃 cannot blame me arh~
still muz eat hor~
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stay tuned to my photoblog.
will update soon.
it has died-ed for so long.
time for revival

jianwen,
send me the e pics!
^^

++jingz++;
11/13/2008 11:03:00 PM

Monday, November 10, 2008

omg-ed. really tired.
think i'm really crazy.
lols.

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in the end.

today turned out to be

abkk day
louis day
and not forgetting,
yenn.
hahas.

*jol, tkc ya?*

according to louis,
abkk is lth.
lols.

nice rain in the morning
but didnt slp in though

think josh prefer females over males.
lol
typical of him

follows us ard the hse if it's my female frens
see my male frens?
he's off to my parents.
lol

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wah~
think i talked the most to yenn today.

nv talk to her so much b4 leh.
or perhaps i getting too talkative alr?

oh nos.
hahas.

*i wasnt really laughing at your hair*
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and the craziest part abt today?

i walked all the way frm raffles to vivo.

think i muz be mad.

after meeting louis for lunch at raffles,
i was to go vivo for my appt.

thot i cld just cross over to clifford to take bus
but cldnt find a way to cross the road
so i just continued walking

after walking for quite some time
i realised tt i didnt see any bus stop in the direction i was walking

only then did i realised it was a one-way road in the opposite direction!!!!!!!

*peng*

and looking at the time,
i was thinking tt thr's still time.

so heck la~
just walk.
not v far anyway.

turned out tt i miscalculated the distance

*peng again*

so abt a 20-30 mins bus ride,
i took abt an hr to walk.

*triple peng*

louis said i muz be crazy after i told him.
admit i am.

but i kinda njy walks. lol.
but then again,
think night better.
quieter.
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thur = elisa day!
^^

anymore?

*looking forward!
free movie! free popcorn! free drink!
hahas.
yea man!*

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oh man.
i think i'm a bad influence.

on jianwen

lols.

jianwen,
you bad girl.

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life.

要趁年轻

++jingz++;
11/10/2008 10:51:00 PM

sometimes

just go w the flow

things will just fall in nicely

^^

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a day dedicated to myself

but

ai-yee!!!!!

i didnt do what i intended to do
sighs.

just so typically me.

played games.
omg-ed.
妹妹 says i today weird weird de
lols
think too slack alr

and yup,
i slacked the entire day away
think the more i slack
the more tired i feel

think cld be due to the hectic life i have
body not used to slack life
lols
so the minute i take a break
my body just break down

lols.
no.no.
getting back on track again.
^^

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let's see

mon = louis and jolene day
tue = tuition day?
wed = huemin day. minshan?

hmmz.

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yupei arh,
no jeecheng cannot concentrate study arh?
lols

cannot 偷偷 go orhorh hor~

ganbatte!

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life is short.

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some ppl say
人之初
性本善

but others say
人之初
性本恶

which do you believe in?

i believe in neither
and i hope it's not the latter

but does it matter?
i guess ppl change.
environmental factors play a part

what i believe in the nature of humans.

greediness.
ppl always want more.
nv know contentment
once contentment is reached,
they'd ask for more

have always try to be just content w everything
i am content
but then again,
who doesnt want more?

if it's possible
i wld want everything if i can
i admit i'm greedy

and as time passes,
ppl forget how to be just contented w what they have

i think i've been thr done tt
so i keep reminding myself

treasure.
be content.

and laziness.
another human nature

it's always
if thr's others to help?
why not.

*trying to be not as lazy!!!!*
have to depend on myself!
argh.

cos dependency is dangerous

++jingz++;
11/10/2008 12:20:00 AM

Saturday, November 08, 2008

outings!!!!!!!!

^^

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met up w elisa!
*grins*

although we hvt been in contact for such a lllooooonnnggg time
we still click well

^^

it only shows

some ppl
you can just click

and some
it'll just nv happen

*grins*

*missing the times*

aiyeeee...
we were so bz catching up
and talking to each other

tt we didnt take much photos

considering the fact tt the both o us likes to take pics

sighs

oh wells,
nvm

thr'll always a nxt one rite?
^^
soon!

elisa!!!!!
swimming class!!!!

com'on

go w me la~
^^

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i like to "integrate" my friends tgt

eh, actually only those closer ones la~
heh

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interesting

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i'm so dead-ed.

but guess what?!?!

i dont care

hahas.

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两位大哥哥说

i'm still young
muz exposed myself to things

but 当我问时
又不要告诉我

think i'm out to burn my fingers again?

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i'm perfectly sane

just abit crazy at times

and i just lose all my image w i laugh
*sighs*

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ai-yee

stop teasing me
*paiseh alr*

i v shy de
heex

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lols

i'm v influential?
*the jeecheng-virus*

lols.

++jingz++;
11/08/2008 10:46:00 PM

Thursday, November 06, 2008

finished up every single grain o rice
5 chix wings
kimchi
and a bowl o soup

i'm so darn full

guys,
i dont intend to have an appetite as big!
dont get me to finish up so much la
你们太看得起我了

i'll grow fat at this rate

a simple meal
but the food's nice
and i'm not complaining

but i just dont wanna get fat
lols
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grad trip?
tt's gona be 2 yrs ltr and planning alr?
*faints*

i'd like to
but i dont think its v convenient for me

unless

...

we'll see la huh
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i realised

papa actually
挺疼我的

*touched*

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妹妹
nxt sem
要去 vietnam 了

lucky her

so i'm gonna have the entire room for myself
friends up for slpover?
heh.

but i'll miss her

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are what we are doing now an actual reality o our own decisions
is everthing actually planned for us?

even the part o making decisions?

are we our own decision makers?
are we just pawns in life?

sth sparked me off
my tuitee said
everthing's actually predestined

*so he neednt study
since its alr bound tt he fail or pass*

i was almost on my deathbed

but his innocent sentence made me think

*thots shall count on another day*

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棋子 - 王菲

想走出你控制的领域

却走近你安排的战局

我没有坚强的防备

也没有后路可以退

想逃离你布下的陷阱

却陷入了另一个困境

我没有决定输蠃的勇气

也没有逃脱的幸运

我像是一颗棋

进退任由你决定

我不是你眼中唯一将领

却是不起眼的小兵

我像是一颗棋子

来去全不由自己

举手无悔你从不曾犹豫

我却受控在你手里

我却受控在你手里

++jingz++;
11/06/2008 11:10:00 PM

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

amanda!
i love ya to bits!
^^

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friends

to top it off,

i think friends are those who will automatically go to you
once they sense sth is not right

and being a friend,
you'll defo go to him/her
if you sense tt sth is not right

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use logic to treat yourself
use feelings to treat others

use your mind to rmb lessons learnt
and
use your heart to keep the memories

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i didnt know tt
treating a person nice
need reasons

so just quit wondering
or asking
i also duno

if you find tt you're treating me too nicely
then just quit being so nice

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eek.
some things dont have to be said
i didnt need to know
and i dont wish to know
nthing will ever come out o it

ppl in the right mind
wldnt say this kind o thing
in this kind o situation

made me wished i was still crying instead
this issue seems so much more complicated
and eeky

i duno if it's a joke or what
or perhaps you're seriously too bored
if it is
i dont find it funny at all

if not for the fact tt i felt indebted
and promises made
i wld have chosen total avoidance

but lucky

you're smart
now i feel slightly better
just dont talk rot alr

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sickness has taken me
i'm not gg to surrender to you!

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went town on fri w jianwen
and this is what we saw

or rather, heard

it's so d*** noisy

attention seekers.

just want to show off

now i help promote

DISCLAIMER:

this is written based on asspt

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and ooh,

revenge can be real sweet

hahas.

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the world can just get so practical.

disgusting.

but this is the world huh.

considerations for everything.

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i miss gabriel kong!
and jerome
and my lil' lil' children

i miss hearing them say

"miss jee... ..."

gabriel's morning kisses
jerome's sensibility
jefferson's superb ability to fix jigsaws

and even
the naughty ones whom drives me crazy

++jingz++;
11/04/2008 09:19:00 PM