Tuesday, March 24, 2009
i fell again.
this time round,
i bled pretty badly.
it has been such a long time since i got external injuries from fall.
it hurts. the pain excruciating.
i didnt even realised i was bleeding until i saw the blood stains on my white pants.
i mean long white pants and i'm still able to scratched my knee so badly. the entire skin came off.
the wound was so ugly. so gross. it was... ...
i was so scared. so frightened.
i wanted so badly to have you with me.
i wanted to hear your reassuring voice
telling me everything will be alright.
i teared.
i hate that kind of feeling
but i tell myself no.
told myself i am a strong girl.
i am a brave girl
and it's only a small issue
told myself i can handle myself.
i picked myself up.
my actions the total opposite of what i was feeling.
i was unnaturally calm.
but the inside o me was frantic
i was so grossed out by the look of the wound.
i didnt really know what to do.
but in the end, i believed i handled myself just fine.
in fact, i think i'm proud of myself now.
i took care of myself.
i washed my wound and tried to approached the sch office for 1st aid kit.
but darn the school. they didnt have one. i almost fainted.
good thing i managed to get some antiseptic and guazed it up.
i'm glad i got it through.
without you.
++jingz++;
3/24/2009 04:52:00 PM
